What do you do.

I love someone. Someone i should not love. But i do. And have for 2 years. I told myself not to love him anymore and i stopped for about 2 weeks. Now he calls, and i cant make myself ignore the phone. I blocked him on everything he could possibly get in touch with me on, except my house phone. When i answer it, my heart melts. I talk to him like its not big deal and like i don't care how he has been. I keep trying to rush off the phone because i don't want to be sucked back in. He knows that is what i do though. So he doesn't let me go. He knows if he pushes just a little at a time by the end of the hour phone call well have dinner plans the following day. But not today, its been to long. there is no way I'm going back. I tell him i have to go and after avoiding the questions that lead into new conversations I'm finally free. He knows how to get me to say things i don't want to say. He knows how to pick out the little details i purposely left out of stories. He knows how far he can bend me without snapping me in half. He knows me. Which is why i had to leave. I could not continue on with someone who knew what to say to make me happy when at that time i NEEDED to be mad at him. If i could have just stayed mad this would have all been over with 1.5 years ago. And there would not be this much pain because there would not be as many memories to miss. I loved him, he loved me. We really did. I was his first love he was my (second) but a very true love. Talking to him tonight i told him i was with someone else. Not to make him jealous, but to make him just leave me alone. So i couldnt fall backwards back to him. If we could go back to how we were at first. I would not be blocking his number. I just know in life i want a family. A husband and kids. And i know in life, he wants money. No wife. Certainly no kids. Just money to spend on himself and cars and boats and anything else a guy would buy. Thats why i ended it in reality. Not becuase the lies he held. But in the end. We didnt want the same thing. So how could we want eachother? I cannot tell him this because he will tell me what i want to hear to get me back. So what do you do when you try to move on but the person on the other end of the phone wont let you hang up?